Are all your bits together?

Sometimes different aspects of ourselves decide to do their own thing in our lives, taking us out of balance.

What does that mean?

You might have an ‘organized part’ of you that loves to get the jobs done, tick off the lists , plans, organizes and does.

There might be another part of you that is the a “play part”, who loves to have fun, play jokes, jump in puddles walk barefoot, be free as a bird.

Then there might be a ‘fearful part’ of you that worries about life, what people might think or who doubts their abilities.

We all have different aspects within us.  They all support us when in balance, but when one part takes over and is driving your bus their way, it can become uncomfortable and unhealthy.  You might even get a headache or feel sick.

So what do you do about it?

You need to have a ‘get together’ with all your parts – a parts party!

They need to introduce themselves and share their strengths – what they do for you.  They need to listen to each other, to hear what the other parts strengths are and what they do for you.

When that happens the integration begins.  As life goes on for you, each part can advise and guide you.  Then you can make the a balanced decision in how you act and react in each moment.

Let me introduce you to my 3 parts.

Shaman Tracy – wise seer and healer who works with nature

Earth Tracy – the physical me that lives in this natural world

Free Tracy – the young free girl in me that likes to have fun and be in touch with nature

We are learning to work together in balance… can do it too.

Enjoy Tracy xx

To live your truth takes strength and courage.

Lately my life has been letting me see my truth, in black and white.

It is funny how we can be far easier on others than ourselves.  I find it is easy to see other peoples truth, what is going on in their lives.  I can chat comfortably with them and give them a gentle prod to help them see what is happening. But when it comes to myself, I am harsh, unforgiving and I hold myself to a higher standard.

We went camping for the last 4 days. I find camping a great place to reconnect with mother earth, the animals and the elements.

We were watching the Osprey fishing for his daily meals.  Its quite windy where we were, so the Osprey could hold itself in the wind without much flying required.

I noticed small movements in his tail feathers when he wanted to go forward or a flattening and spreading of his tail feathers to stay put.

He dove down to into the water and grabbed a fish, came out slightly but then back down into the water.

I watched in amazement at first, as I thought he was adjusting his talons to keep a hold of the fish, but this took too long.  My amazement turned to horror, as wave after wave washed over him.  I thought he was going to drown.  I started to say to my husband, should we go in and save him.

But after a while, he flew out of the water and shook his feathers off, with no fish.

What was the truth, how did he stay in the water that long and survive?

As a shaman, nature and animals will represent messages from Great Spirit.  So I looked at that situation and thought what was the message for me?  If the Opsrey represented a part of me, was I seeing the truth of my life?

  • Does the Osprey catch every fish it goes for? No
  • Do I expect to catch every fish I go for? Yes
  • Do I dive into life with high expectations?  Yes
  • Do I expect things to be successful? Yes
  • Do I flounder around in the waves when things don’t go right?  Yes
  • Was the Osprey floundering around in the waves?  No I don’t think so
  • Do I emotionally stay in those situations too long? Yes
  • Did the Osprey stay in the water too long? No
  • Am I able to get myself out of situations and learn from them? Yes
  • Do I see all aspects of truth in my life? No – my expectations hide the truth from me.
  • Does the Osprey learn from not catching the fish? Yes and I learn from my mistakes and I have a lifetime to do that.

It takes strength and courage to see your truth.

Be gentle on yourself when catching the fish in your life, because you wont catch every fish and you will learn and grow.

Tracy xx

Sacred spiral – what spins you out

In tribal cultures they talk about a ‘sacred spiral’.   Dancing or moving into the centre means, moving to the core of who you are, your soul, into your power.  Moving out in the spiral means, you have allowed your fears or doubts to overtake you.

Yesterday I made a turtle shaped rattle.  I hand painted the shell on the back.  I was quite proud of my efforts, as I am by no means Picasso.   I decided to share it with my friends on facebook.  Interestingly, other people loved it and I had 2 people say, if I made anymore they would buy them.

This morning I awoke between 4 and 5am.  I had had a dream that had made me tense, with a pain in the neck.  This was not useful.

As I lay in bed, I recapped the dream, there were 3 components:

  • I was with a number of people who had to go a do a task in a big city, my first thought I was going to get attacked or mugged as I had seen someone loitering
  • Then I was worried I did not have enough money (you needed a certain amount and I had to go an get some out of the bank)
  • The last part of the dream I was on my friends farm, I had to stay at the farm whilst everyone else went out and worked.  I felt useless.  Then I saw a really strange amazing animal.   At first I thought it was an eagle.  The feathers turned into fur.  As I looked more closely it out to be a cross between a giraffe, llama and a monkey.

As I lay in bed I realised that each of the 3 parts of my dream were about fears or doubts I had about myself and expectations of myself.

I had spun myself out of my sacred spiral and I was feeling tense.

For the shaman in the city, dreams are rich information, about what is going on and what you need to be.

Looking at the dream as a whole the message I recognised was,

  • Parts of me that I think are useful (worry and fear) may not be.
  • Parts of me that I think are useless (not working like everyone else but experiencing other things) may be useful.

Another message of the dream was:

  • Letting go of my fears allows me to communicate through my heart. (I gathered this message from the last part of the dream about feathers turning into fur)  Feathers are about the element of air and communication. Fur means to me, opening my heart.

The last part of the dream message was about the shamanic animal totem meaning of the combined, eagle, giraffe, llama and monkey.   They represent:

  • Creating and expressing offerings to others, through my working with nature and animals

Recognising how and why we spin out of our sacred spiral, allows us the choice to let go of those things and move back into the centre.

Moving back to the centre

Tracy x