Is that pimple really yours?

You know, even at the ripe old age that I am, I can still look in the mirror and see a pimple on my face.  I am not 15 anymore, so pimples aren’t a regular occurrence on my skin like they used to be.

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But when I see a pimple, do I:

  • Blame the chocolate I ate?
  • Blame my woman’s cycle?


  • Take responsibility for my pimple?

Like it or not the pimple is there.  I like to take responsibility for my pimple, so the things I do are:

  • Say hello
  • Thank God for oil in my skin
  • Acknowledge that it is there for a reason – my reason.
  • Nothing or no one has created this pimple but me.
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Pimples are like lessons in life, take responsibility for them, they are yours and yours to learn from.

So love your pimples even at ripe old age….hahaha.

Tracy xx

The gift

In life we all have difficult periods.  I for one have had few, we are all human aren’t we?

Some of those experiences I had packaged up in box and put them (metaphorically speaking) in the back of my cupboard, not to be talked about. Over the years I have done a lot of personal healing on myself and I had dealt with that issue, but it was in the box none the less.

I received a phone call out of the blue from a person I had not spoken to in 20 years.  This person said “no hard feelings…..”.  I realised that I had put a time capsule in the box in the back of the cupboard.  This time capsule, held moments, emotions and situations from an era long past.

As this boxed was opened, I realised life had moved on.  Nothing stands still and I had been hanging onto it ‘like it was 1965’.  With that relevation in mind that time, people and situations have all changed, I let go of it all.  I was really grateful.

My whole life came back into fullness and I remembered the joy of my life.

So thank you for the gift I was given through that phone call.


Do you have any time capsule boxes in the back of your cupboard?

Bring them out, look at them from the view point of 2012, are they true today?

Let them go, be whole.  You deserve it.

Tracy xx

What is the PH level of your soil?

Is stuff happening in your life that you don’t want or is your life happening exactly how its meant to?  Read on if you answered yes to the first part of the question!

I recently met a wonderful lady ‘Cheryl’ who went to Uganda to work with women and she asked them what their vision was.  “They wanted to know the acid/alkaline balance or ph of their soil. This would enable them increase its fertility; grow more and different crops; gain access to markets, with the end result being an increase in their income to pay school fees for their children.” (Cheryl August 2012)”

It got me thinking, what is the PH level in the soil of my life?  Do I have toxic things in my life that don’t allow me to grow and be the person I want and am meant to be.

I recognised negative emotions make me toxic. So I asked myself this question –

“What is in my life that emotionally stirs me up?”

  •  Sorry but I had some people in my life that trigger emotions that stir me up
  • I had some food choices that emotionally stir me up
  • I make choices and then do things that emotionally stir me up

So I got rid of those things.

  • I unfriended myself from some people on facebook, I removed myself from groups and associations that I no longer resonate with.  I felt lighter.
  • I decided to continue not to drink caffeine and have herbal teas instead. I also chose not to eat potato chips.  I felt lighter.
  • I made some choices about letting go of some the goals and expectations I had placed on myself that are just not right in my life right now.  I felt lighter.

The PH level in my soil changed.  Life began to feel better, flow more and things came to me easily.

Keeping the PH level in my soil is an ongoing process because life happens around us, to us and with us.  Make sure the thoughts, words, choices and actions are improving the PH level of your soil every moment.

You will be surprised at how your life will flow and what sort of things will grow over a lifetime.

Enjoy Tracy xx

Game of life

Who has played monopoly?  I have.  It’s a great game and a time honoured classic.  Trying to buy Park Lane and Mayfair, or a railway station or two, building houses and hotels picking up chance cards along the way, paying debts and collecting $200 as you pass “Go”.

The ‘game of life’ is just like playing monopoly.   We start at “Go” and are born.   We journey round the board, growing up, going to school, getting a boyfriend or girlfriend, until we get back to “Go” and collect our $200 and  start all over again in a new phase in our lives.  This phase might be, get a job, get married, buy a home, have kids, pay debts until we get back to “Go” and collect our $200 and then start all over again in another new phase in our lives.

A spiritual journey is exactly the same as playing monopoly.  We start at “Go” and we go in search of ourselves.  Along the way we collect, knowledge, skills, money and material possessions. Things that we believe are important to us.   Along the way we also pay the price for taking on beliefs, attitudes and rules that do and don’t serve ourselves.  But the question of a spiritual journey is, did we find ourselves?

Eventually what happens on a spiritual journey, is we begin to play the ‘game of life’ based on who we are, our authentic selves, not what others want us to be.  As we journey around the board with this mindset, we take off the layers that we have put on to protect ourselves.  We take off the masks to hide what we believe.   We speak our truth.  We get back to “Go” and realize that we have always been ourselves. We just didn’t know it, act it or believe it.

We now trust in ourselves, believe in ourselves and act and speak our truth.

When we get back to “Go” to collect our $200,  we find that we are now living a simpler life, taking only that which we need.  Meaning that $200 goes so much further than it ever did.  Simpler needs mean it is far easier to be happy and whole in your life.

So do you really believe in who you are?

Do you speak your truth in every moment of your life?

Are you wearing any masks that you hide behind?

Do you compromise your life for the sake of others?


An alternate way to think, feel and be, that may be more useful for you, is ask yourself in every moment in your ‘game of life’;

  • Is this right for me?
  • Is this what I need?
  • Am I happy?

You cannot be of service to others, until you are of service to yourself.

Are you being who you really are in every moment of your life?

Authentically me – Tracy xx


To be or not to be – disempowered – that is the question!

Balance is one of the keys to a happy healthy life no matter what you are doing.

It is said that in order to know something you must experience the opposite of it, in order to know and understand what it actually is. So to be balanced, you must experience being, out of balance.

One of the key aspects within us that helps us be in and out of balance are our masculine and feminine energies. People who are driven, active, logical and goal focused have strong masculine energies. People who are passive, inactive, emotional, be in the present moment have strong feminine energies.  Both are vital in a balanced life.  Sometimes going slower is actually going faster in life.

For one who likes to get things going, moving forward, going slower or even being stopped is frustrating for me.  I have strong masculine energy and I like that about me, it has served me well throughout my life, or has it?

Recently my husband and I went camping at the beach.  It was beautiful, time to get a away, rest, rejuveniate, catch up with nature, water, plants, watch the birds, and collect rocks and shells etc. One day I got sick.  I spent the whole day in bed in the tent.  Good thing it was cold weather.  I came away feeling like I wasted the day, but did I really waste the day?

Have you ever heard of the principle of polarity (Hermetic principles)?  It states, everything has an opposite.   For example: black and white, success and failure, love and fear, even male and female.  A practical example of the principle of polarity is the sea tide.   High tide the water is in and at low tide the water is out.  The common theme here is the water  – you.  If we relate this principle of polarity to you, in order to experience your strengths or your light aspects, you must know your areas of development or the dark aspects of yourself.

As I journeyed through being unbalanced whilst away camping.  I realized that by sitting doing nothing I was feeling, I was experiencing feminine energy big time. This was uncomfortable for me, it is not my usual way of operating, I usually run from this.   I was feeling what was going on in the present moment.  What it gave me was a perspective and empathy for others who know only this state of being.  There was power in exploring it, understanding it, recognizing it, learning and evolving in it.

I used to believe that sitting in emotional states that were not useful for you and not doing anything about it, was disempowering.  I was wrong, I found that this was an empowering experience.

My old way of behaving using masculine energy to drive me would have been similar to, dipping my toe in the emotion, recognizing what was going on, clearing the emotion, push through it and get up and out of bed.

I used to believe that dealing with feelings and moving on, was a more empowering way of living my life.   I now recognise that this way of operating for me, was disempowering because I wasnt allowing myself to experience the polarity of the emotion or situation.  To experience the low and high tide of any situation allows you freedom and wholeness.

Through denying one aspect of the polarity of your life, you disempower yourself. To be balanced in our lives means we need to move between the active masculine states of being and passive feminine states of being, to gain to empowerment and wholeness in our lives.

So live, see both ends of the spectrum.   Be the water, flow with your masculine and feminine energies wherever they take you.

To be and not be – empowered.   That is question and the answer!

Tracy xx


Creation: A process of healing through medicine making

When creating something, whether it is sewing a new outfit, cooking a beautiful meal, or even creating a medicine tool, you are bringing new things or ways of being into your life.  It will also mean letting go of things, behaviours, thoughts and beliefs that don’t serve you anymore.

I love creating and medicine shield making is one way I create.   It is a process that takes time.  I may find a beautiful stick on a walk that talks to me and invites me to pick it up and bring it home.  That stick may sit on my balcony or in the lounge room for months till one day, I have a flash of inspiration, of what I am meant to do with it.

A picture will form in my head about what I am meant to do.  I will ponder and perturbate that thought, knowing that the creation process has begun.

This stick (shown in the picture below)  appeared to be a person that wanted wings.  As the thoughts churned around in my mind, I thought it could be an angel, but alas no, that was not meant to be.  My creative connection decided it would be a bat.

As soon as I know my creative idea has crystalised, I get a sense of urgency.  I must create this now.  Nothing else matters.  So with excitement and passion I go about the creation process for making a medicine shield.

For this shield, I first cut out templates for the bat wings.  I then commence assembling the medicine shield.

I break rules when I create things. I let go of the, should’s, must do’s, have to’s and just allow what is happening.

I allow the medicine shield to come alive with each step of the creating.  I tension the leather wings onto the stick.

I love to use nature, food, or any natural item I can, to create my vision and in this case the vision of the bat.   Here I have used lentils to create the bat wing forelimbs.

Lastly when I feel it is done.  I birth the medicine shield with my drum, bringing it to life with the heart beat of mother earth and because I have given birth to this creation, it is a part of me.

So this bat medicine shield shamanically signifies rebirth.  At this point in my life I was rebirthing into a new way of being.  I had let go of old ways of living, acting and reacting.  The medicine shield signifies my personal journey.  It is healing me, it is allowing me to grow and evolve.

Anything that you create is allowing you to heal, grow and evolve.  So go and create something, a meal, a beautiful posy of flowers, create anything and experience that beautiful healing of creation.