Everyone is on a pilgrimage

For centuries people have been undertaking sacred pilgrimages all over the world.  Christian pilgrims have walked along the Camino Way to Santiago De Compostela and Muslim pilgrims make their way to Mecca once in their lifetime.   I have recently had a friend and a cousin who have walked the Camino Way and I was interested to watch the movie made of the journey, called “The Way”.

Pilgrimadge path Camino WaySacred pilgrimages made me think about life.  Each of us is searching, whether it be for happiness, love, or for our purpose.

Pilgrims journeyEveryone is on a pilgrimage, it is a journey that each of us travel throughout our lives, to find the truth of who we are.

Our journeys start by doing what our parents want.  Living our lives according to their rules, values and beliefs.

As we step out of that old way of living, we begin to surrender to what is right in our lives.  When we are surrendering on the pilgrimage journey, we can feel lost and at sea in our lives.

Pilgrims Under the guise of surrender we think we are following the path, but in fact we are still living our life by old values of what we think we should be doing now.  Usually we have replaced those old values given to us by our parents, with new ones that still dont serve us.  They used to work for us in the past, but dont anymore, we have out grown them too.

At this point of our pilgrims journey, we may well become angry.  Angry at ourselves, with feelings of being stuck or thinking we have changed, but in fact we haven’t really changed anything.

going around in circlesWhat occurs next is wallowing.  We wallow in our pain and circle around, scolding ourselves that we should have moved on.  Thinking we had let this stuff go, so we can be our true selves.

Then it happens, true surrender.  True surrender is when you least expect it on the pilgrims path, where step into the truth of who you really are. There is peace in this place.  You might find that you are with people and yet you feel alone, alone in your life.

Finding who you are

Finding who you are

You begin to choose your life.  A life that is right for you, not anyone else.  It is a place of courage.

A pilgrimage is unique and only you can journey on it and surrender within it for yourself.

Journey well

Tracy xx

Why do you throw up when you are in your power?

Imagine this, every time you stepped into your personal power, there you are, pulling your hair back and throwing up in inappropriate places and times!

How is this being in your power?

Lost in life

At times on this personal spiritual journey we can get lost, because there isn’t a road map.  No one gave you clear instructions on what to do and where to go.

So what you do you need to know?  The answers to these questions will help:

  • What are we here to do?
  • How will you know if you are on the right path?
  • How will you know when you get there?

We find out what we are here to do, when we begin to realise what makes us happy and brings joy to our lives.   Then, everything flows around us when we are doing it.  We each have a spiritual purpose, a reason why we are here.  That spiritual purpose will bring us great joy.

Joy and happiness

As you begin to open spiritually, your energy changes in your body.   You let go of the negative self talk, people that you don’t resonate with anymore leave your life and you begin to choose what is right for you. That can be daunting because the things that are right for you now, were never right for you in the past!!!  It can be confusing.

Then along the path one day, without you even realising, you truly step in your power, the what and why you are here.  You may not have done anything differently than normal, but you are different, you feel different, you act differently, you think differently and there is a pure flow of energy about you.

Personal power

This is the point where an old small part of you, can become overwhelmed and says “get out”.  That small part of you tries to purge the powerful you.  In some cases this really does happen and you do throw up!

Excitingly, although it doesn’t feel like it at the time,  this is the point where you are truly you.  This is what you are meant to be doing, thinking and feeling.

Ask the part of you that is trying to purge the rest of you, what is it trying to protect? It might be because it was scared, it didn’t want you to get hurt or it wanted you to be just like everyone else.    Reconcile with that aspect of you that is fighting this and be who you are?

People used to ask you when you were young – “What do you want to be when you grow up?”

Be who you are

You, should have been the answer!

Enjoy the journey Tracy xx

Are you to independent to ask for help?

I have liked to achieve things on my own.  It has given me over the years a real sense of achievement and a feeling of success.  By not asking for help, it has actually made my life more difficult than it needed to be.

Why do we do these things to ourselves?  Is it because we want the recognition?  Is it because we were brought up with beliefs like:

  • you have to make it on your own, or
  • your weak if you ask for help.

I got to thinking about this, because it is not only me, that doesn’t like to ask for help.  I see it in others.  We are forced to swallow our pride to get some help.  There is an exception for most of us, we do ask for help from the people that are close to us.

So let’s think about asking for help a little differently.   Let’s think about it as, a process of co-creation.

When I make a meal, I am co creating with the food.  I cant make a meal without food, so I really need the foods help.

I am a qualified chef so I don’t use recipes very often (only for baking, because you need a recipe for that) but for those of you who do use recipes to make a meal, you are co-creating with food and the author of the recipe.  Your getting help.  Like the picture above, I am co-creating with the food to make a meal for my Dad.  I am helping my Dad.

When I write this blog, I am being inspired by an aspect of life that I feel is important to share and so I am co-creating with a divine source to write down my inspirations to help others bring balance into their lives.  I am being helped and I am helping others.

How much easier would life be, if we all asked for help when we needed it. You know you cant make a baby without help…..!!

A coffee with friends sharing ideas, is an act of co-creation. They are helping you get clear about what to do and you are helping them.

So stop being independent and ask to co-create your life, it will flow so much easier if you do.

Enjoy Tracy xx


To be or not to be – disempowered – that is the question!

Balance is one of the keys to a happy healthy life no matter what you are doing.

It is said that in order to know something you must experience the opposite of it, in order to know and understand what it actually is. So to be balanced, you must experience being, out of balance.

One of the key aspects within us that helps us be in and out of balance are our masculine and feminine energies. People who are driven, active, logical and goal focused have strong masculine energies. People who are passive, inactive, emotional, be in the present moment have strong feminine energies.  Both are vital in a balanced life.  Sometimes going slower is actually going faster in life.

For one who likes to get things going, moving forward, going slower or even being stopped is frustrating for me.  I have strong masculine energy and I like that about me, it has served me well throughout my life, or has it?

Recently my husband and I went camping at the beach.  It was beautiful, time to get a away, rest, rejuveniate, catch up with nature, water, plants, watch the birds, and collect rocks and shells etc. One day I got sick.  I spent the whole day in bed in the tent.  Good thing it was cold weather.  I came away feeling like I wasted the day, but did I really waste the day?

Have you ever heard of the principle of polarity (Hermetic principles)?  It states, everything has an opposite.   For example: black and white, success and failure, love and fear, even male and female.  A practical example of the principle of polarity is the sea tide.   High tide the water is in and at low tide the water is out.  The common theme here is the water  – you.  If we relate this principle of polarity to you, in order to experience your strengths or your light aspects, you must know your areas of development or the dark aspects of yourself.

As I journeyed through being unbalanced whilst away camping.  I realized that by sitting doing nothing I was feeling, I was experiencing feminine energy big time. This was uncomfortable for me, it is not my usual way of operating, I usually run from this.   I was feeling what was going on in the present moment.  What it gave me was a perspective and empathy for others who know only this state of being.  There was power in exploring it, understanding it, recognizing it, learning and evolving in it.

I used to believe that sitting in emotional states that were not useful for you and not doing anything about it, was disempowering.  I was wrong, I found that this was an empowering experience.

My old way of behaving using masculine energy to drive me would have been similar to, dipping my toe in the emotion, recognizing what was going on, clearing the emotion, push through it and get up and out of bed.

I used to believe that dealing with feelings and moving on, was a more empowering way of living my life.   I now recognise that this way of operating for me, was disempowering because I wasnt allowing myself to experience the polarity of the emotion or situation.  To experience the low and high tide of any situation allows you freedom and wholeness.

Through denying one aspect of the polarity of your life, you disempower yourself. To be balanced in our lives means we need to move between the active masculine states of being and passive feminine states of being, to gain to empowerment and wholeness in our lives.

So live, see both ends of the spectrum.   Be the water, flow with your masculine and feminine energies wherever they take you.

To be and not be – empowered.   That is question and the answer!

Tracy xx


Transformation – Breaking out of your cocoon

Yesterday I journeyed with some wonderful people to facilitate their ‘making a drum’.

Drum makers enter the day thinking they know who they are – unrealized potential.      They leave the day transformed into who they really are – awakened.

Drum making is a powerful experience. All medicine making is powerful and transformative.

Most of us start our day by ritually having a shower, putting on our make up or shaving and getting dressed for work.

When making medicine, we too have a ritual, it is creating sacred space.  I created our sacred space by bringing in, the four directions, four elements, sun, moon, sky, mother earth, great spirit, our ancestors, guides and animal totems.  Here it is represented in the photo.  This ritual is preparing for the transformation.


Here is where the transformation journey of the larva to the butterfly begins.  All of us have potential within us to transform ourselves, but not just once, many times.

At the start of drum making, we meditate to meet the deer, who has gifted us the hide we will use to make the drum.

We then commence cutting out the hide and the lacing, to make the drum.   Old thoughts, emotions and behaviours come out for us to release, knowing they are being healed.  It is useful to recognise these emotions and know what they mean for us.

For the larva it is about building the cocoon and going within.  It is about being in the dark, with aspects of ourselves that we may have avoided, don’t want to face, that need healing.

Next starts the process of binding the back of the drum, by tensioning the drum head over the hoop.  This is challenging and more phsycially demanding than people realize.  It is time for the butterfly to break out of the cocoon.  No one can help the butterfly, for if they do, the butterfly will not have the blood or life force energy in their wings to fly.  So undertaking this process with the hide knotting and losing ones way, is part of what happens as we bind the back of the drum on our own.






As the end comes near and the final tensioning of the back of the drum occurs, a new found sense of freedom emerges for the drum makers.  A transformation.  The drum has taken form, it has beauty and power.  Drum makers know the struggle they went through to create their drum. So it is with pride they show their drums to others.  They recognise what the journey of transformation is.

So as my drum participants left the day with their drum in their hands, they were not the same people.  They were all transformed, awakened with a new found belief in themselves.  Look at them sparkle, they are ready to fly.

So transform yourself, break out of your cocoon and empower yourself in your life.

Tracy xx