Is that pimple really yours?

You know, even at the ripe old age that I am, I can still look in the mirror and see a pimple on my face.  I am not 15 anymore, so pimples aren’t a regular occurrence on my skin like they used to be.

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But when I see a pimple, do I:

  • Blame the chocolate I ate?
  • Blame my woman’s cycle?


  • Take responsibility for my pimple?

Like it or not the pimple is there.  I like to take responsibility for my pimple, so the things I do are:

  • Say hello
  • Thank God for oil in my skin
  • Acknowledge that it is there for a reason – my reason.
  • Nothing or no one has created this pimple but me.
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Pimples are like lessons in life, take responsibility for them, they are yours and yours to learn from.

So love your pimples even at ripe old age….hahaha.

Tracy xx

Who is the ruler of the desert?

We are currently travelling through Central Australia. It is hot and dry and the sun bakes the land.  I have asked myself the question, who is the ruler of the desert?

Desert ruler?

Desert ruler?

What I have found is that the element of water, the feminine influence is in control. She is the giver of life.  She has been here thousands of years ago and she is still here now.  We must remember to honour her and give her the respect she deserves because she is the creator of life in the desert.

In desert where the sun shines and the masculine influence is predominant, it is still controlled by the feminine. Tribal cultures have always known this, we in the city are oblivious to this.  Our water is on tap, if it is hot, we go inside and turn our air conditioners on.  If we are hungry we go to the supermarket to buy our food.  Everything is convenient, we do not have to think about the balance in nature.

The real desert ruler

The real desert ruler

So how does that relate to us?  To live a balanced life we can be predominantly masculine in the way we live ours lives, driven and focused but we must temper that respectfully and honourably with our feminine side, our giver of life.

Learning a new respect and balanced way of life.

Tracy x

Is it easier to have an instant garden than to grow your own?

How many of us want things now?

I know I do at certain times in my life, especially when I am tired, sick of myself or impatient.

I was given an opportunity to do something this week, that was really important and worthwhile.  I would have been really pushed to get it done in the time frame in a quality way.   I was guided to I look at the situation this way.

Is it easier to have an instant garden or to grow your own from seedlings?

When people build a house they get two options, they can either get a landscaper in and do an instant garden or they do it themselves.  If they are impatient and they want their house completely done, they might pick the landscaper.  He/ She would come in, put in mature plants, grass paving etc and their garden could look like it has been there for 20 years.

What happens though, is that instant garden dies off after about a week, even just a little. Looks great for a couple of days but the garden doesn’t have the strength in its foundation. It could  be sustained, but it takes a lot of tending.

So should you take the time to plant your garden from seedlings, giving them time to grow roots, to grow with the sun and truly embed themselves in your soil?

With my situation I decided to take the time, plant the seedlings and not be rushed.  I want strength in my foundations and create something that will last.

What do you choose you in your life?

Enjoy Tracy x

Everything comes from a thought

If you look around you, you will see buildings, cars and planes, all built by us.  We have been building things for generations.

Do you know, we build things that we don’t even realise we do.

Henry Ford said “ if you think you can or you think you cant, you’re right”

I recently had a waft of a thought come into my mind and I acknowledged it.

That little thought manifested into a full blown headache with a tense neck and shoulders, which led to my needing to spend the day lying down.

I was fascinated, with that thought, I had built the following over the next 5 days:

  • I had a ‘want’ in my life
  • I went in search of that ‘want’
  • I didn’t get what I ‘wanted’ I got what I ‘needed’
  • I then got frustrated and angry
  • I then ate to make myself happy, which just made me angry
  • So I ate again, which made me angry,
  • Believe it or not, I did eat again and got angry again
  • I then got really tense in my body, knotted shoulders and got a good sized headache

From that one little thought that wafted through my mind, I had built myself into an unhealthy tense mess in a week.  Funny Rome wasn’t built in a day, but I did some serious building in a very short amount of time.

So think about your tiny thoughts that waft into your mind, if they are not true, let them go.

If you want to create a life that is happy and healthy, then think about little things that are true for you and see how they grow.

Maybe even spend time, not thinking – just being.   It will be peaceful and it will grow too.

May your thoughts be good for you

Tracy xx

What is the PH level of your soil?

Is stuff happening in your life that you don’t want or is your life happening exactly how its meant to?  Read on if you answered yes to the first part of the question!

I recently met a wonderful lady ‘Cheryl’ who went to Uganda to work with women and she asked them what their vision was.  “They wanted to know the acid/alkaline balance or ph of their soil. This would enable them increase its fertility; grow more and different crops; gain access to markets, with the end result being an increase in their income to pay school fees for their children.” (Cheryl August 2012)”

It got me thinking, what is the PH level in the soil of my life?  Do I have toxic things in my life that don’t allow me to grow and be the person I want and am meant to be.

I recognised negative emotions make me toxic. So I asked myself this question –

“What is in my life that emotionally stirs me up?”

  •  Sorry but I had some people in my life that trigger emotions that stir me up
  • I had some food choices that emotionally stir me up
  • I make choices and then do things that emotionally stir me up

So I got rid of those things.

  • I unfriended myself from some people on facebook, I removed myself from groups and associations that I no longer resonate with.  I felt lighter.
  • I decided to continue not to drink caffeine and have herbal teas instead. I also chose not to eat potato chips.  I felt lighter.
  • I made some choices about letting go of some the goals and expectations I had placed on myself that are just not right in my life right now.  I felt lighter.

The PH level in my soil changed.  Life began to feel better, flow more and things came to me easily.

Keeping the PH level in my soil is an ongoing process because life happens around us, to us and with us.  Make sure the thoughts, words, choices and actions are improving the PH level of your soil every moment.

You will be surprised at how your life will flow and what sort of things will grow over a lifetime.

Enjoy Tracy xx

Sacred spiral – what spins you out

In tribal cultures they talk about a ‘sacred spiral’.   Dancing or moving into the centre means, moving to the core of who you are, your soul, into your power.  Moving out in the spiral means, you have allowed your fears or doubts to overtake you.

Yesterday I made a turtle shaped rattle.  I hand painted the shell on the back.  I was quite proud of my efforts, as I am by no means Picasso.   I decided to share it with my friends on facebook.  Interestingly, other people loved it and I had 2 people say, if I made anymore they would buy them.

This morning I awoke between 4 and 5am.  I had had a dream that had made me tense, with a pain in the neck.  This was not useful.

As I lay in bed, I recapped the dream, there were 3 components:

  • I was with a number of people who had to go a do a task in a big city, my first thought I was going to get attacked or mugged as I had seen someone loitering
  • Then I was worried I did not have enough money (you needed a certain amount and I had to go an get some out of the bank)
  • The last part of the dream I was on my friends farm, I had to stay at the farm whilst everyone else went out and worked.  I felt useless.  Then I saw a really strange amazing animal.   At first I thought it was an eagle.  The feathers turned into fur.  As I looked more closely it out to be a cross between a giraffe, llama and a monkey.

As I lay in bed I realised that each of the 3 parts of my dream were about fears or doubts I had about myself and expectations of myself.

I had spun myself out of my sacred spiral and I was feeling tense.

For the shaman in the city, dreams are rich information, about what is going on and what you need to be.

Looking at the dream as a whole the message I recognised was,

  • Parts of me that I think are useful (worry and fear) may not be.
  • Parts of me that I think are useless (not working like everyone else but experiencing other things) may be useful.

Another message of the dream was:

  • Letting go of my fears allows me to communicate through my heart. (I gathered this message from the last part of the dream about feathers turning into fur)  Feathers are about the element of air and communication. Fur means to me, opening my heart.

The last part of the dream message was about the shamanic animal totem meaning of the combined, eagle, giraffe, llama and monkey.   They represent:

  • Creating and expressing offerings to others, through my working with nature and animals

Recognising how and why we spin out of our sacred spiral, allows us the choice to let go of those things and move back into the centre.

Moving back to the centre

Tracy x

Creation: A process of healing through medicine making

When creating something, whether it is sewing a new outfit, cooking a beautiful meal, or even creating a medicine tool, you are bringing new things or ways of being into your life.  It will also mean letting go of things, behaviours, thoughts and beliefs that don’t serve you anymore.

I love creating and medicine shield making is one way I create.   It is a process that takes time.  I may find a beautiful stick on a walk that talks to me and invites me to pick it up and bring it home.  That stick may sit on my balcony or in the lounge room for months till one day, I have a flash of inspiration, of what I am meant to do with it.

A picture will form in my head about what I am meant to do.  I will ponder and perturbate that thought, knowing that the creation process has begun.

This stick (shown in the picture below)  appeared to be a person that wanted wings.  As the thoughts churned around in my mind, I thought it could be an angel, but alas no, that was not meant to be.  My creative connection decided it would be a bat.

As soon as I know my creative idea has crystalised, I get a sense of urgency.  I must create this now.  Nothing else matters.  So with excitement and passion I go about the creation process for making a medicine shield.

For this shield, I first cut out templates for the bat wings.  I then commence assembling the medicine shield.

I break rules when I create things. I let go of the, should’s, must do’s, have to’s and just allow what is happening.

I allow the medicine shield to come alive with each step of the creating.  I tension the leather wings onto the stick.

I love to use nature, food, or any natural item I can, to create my vision and in this case the vision of the bat.   Here I have used lentils to create the bat wing forelimbs.

Lastly when I feel it is done.  I birth the medicine shield with my drum, bringing it to life with the heart beat of mother earth and because I have given birth to this creation, it is a part of me.

So this bat medicine shield shamanically signifies rebirth.  At this point in my life I was rebirthing into a new way of being.  I had let go of old ways of living, acting and reacting.  The medicine shield signifies my personal journey.  It is healing me, it is allowing me to grow and evolve.

Anything that you create is allowing you to heal, grow and evolve.  So go and create something, a meal, a beautiful posy of flowers, create anything and experience that beautiful healing of creation.