Who is the ruler of the desert?

We are currently travelling through Central Australia. It is hot and dry and the sun bakes the land.  I have asked myself the question, who is the ruler of the desert?

Desert ruler?

Desert ruler?

What I have found is that the element of water, the feminine influence is in control. She is the giver of life.  She has been here thousands of years ago and she is still here now.  We must remember to honour her and give her the respect she deserves because she is the creator of life in the desert.

In desert where the sun shines and the masculine influence is predominant, it is still controlled by the feminine. Tribal cultures have always known this, we in the city are oblivious to this.  Our water is on tap, if it is hot, we go inside and turn our air conditioners on.  If we are hungry we go to the supermarket to buy our food.  Everything is convenient, we do not have to think about the balance in nature.

The real desert ruler

The real desert ruler

So how does that relate to us?  To live a balanced life we can be predominantly masculine in the way we live ours lives, driven and focused but we must temper that respectfully and honourably with our feminine side, our giver of life.

Learning a new respect and balanced way of life.

Tracy x

Do you see what is and what else it is?

You might have heard people say, ‘what you see is what you get’.  What I have learnt is there is so much more to see than just what is on the surface.

Tribal cultures talk about there being ‘spirit’ in all living things.  In the clouds, animals, trees, water and stones etc.  I subscribe to this belief too.

So what does that have to do with seeing what is and what else it is?

When I see a bird, I see the bird, but then I might see other things.

Take a look at some of these photos I have taken and I will share what I see and what else it is.

Firstly I see a magpie, then I see a whale (on it’s wing)

I see a stone, then I see a man who is like a coyote with a buffalo headdress

I see a palm frond, then I see a native American headdress, a porcupine and a swordfish

I see a cloud, then I see a Pheonix rising from the ashes.

The act of firstly seeing one thing and then seeing something else as well, is called scrying.  As spirit is in every living thing, that is why this occurs and that is how a spiritual message is given to you.  Spiritual messages will appear in all things, you just have to see what is and then really see what else it is, so you can get the message.

It is a great way to get you to think laterally and outside the square.  Sometimes taking pictures of things help you to really see it later.

Why not try it today, go out and look at things, really look at all things.  See what messages are about for you.

Enjoy Tracy x

Why do you throw up when you are in your power?

Imagine this, every time you stepped into your personal power, there you are, pulling your hair back and throwing up in inappropriate places and times!

How is this being in your power?

Lost in life

At times on this personal spiritual journey we can get lost, because there isn’t a road map.  No one gave you clear instructions on what to do and where to go.

So what you do you need to know?  The answers to these questions will help:

  • What are we here to do?
  • How will you know if you are on the right path?
  • How will you know when you get there?

We find out what we are here to do, when we begin to realise what makes us happy and brings joy to our lives.   Then, everything flows around us when we are doing it.  We each have a spiritual purpose, a reason why we are here.  That spiritual purpose will bring us great joy.

Joy and happiness

As you begin to open spiritually, your energy changes in your body.   You let go of the negative self talk, people that you don’t resonate with anymore leave your life and you begin to choose what is right for you. That can be daunting because the things that are right for you now, were never right for you in the past!!!  It can be confusing.

Then along the path one day, without you even realising, you truly step in your power, the what and why you are here.  You may not have done anything differently than normal, but you are different, you feel different, you act differently, you think differently and there is a pure flow of energy about you.

Personal power

This is the point where an old small part of you, can become overwhelmed and says “get out”.  That small part of you tries to purge the powerful you.  In some cases this really does happen and you do throw up!

Excitingly, although it doesn’t feel like it at the time,  this is the point where you are truly you.  This is what you are meant to be doing, thinking and feeling.

Ask the part of you that is trying to purge the rest of you, what is it trying to protect? It might be because it was scared, it didn’t want you to get hurt or it wanted you to be just like everyone else.    Reconcile with that aspect of you that is fighting this and be who you are?

People used to ask you when you were young – “What do you want to be when you grow up?”

Be who you are

You, should have been the answer!

Enjoy the journey Tracy xx

What is your truth?

When I was a really young girl maybe 4 or 5, my Mother told me “Don’t swallow your chewing gum, or else it will gum up your works”.  An important lesson really don’t you think?

One day I was down the street with a neighbour and I accidently swallowed my chewing gum.  I began to cry uncontrollably.  The neighbour asked me what was wrong to which I said “I am going to gum up my works”.  I had believed what my Mother had told me.

Obviously as an adult, I know that wasn’t my truth and my mother was just trying to teach me not to swallow my gum, but as adults we can still take on others truths.

I love forget me not flowers and as a kid I loved to play with them.  A couple of years ago I went to a wildlife park with an expert.  In the park were lots of forget me not flowers.  This person told me the forget me not flowers were weeds and a terrible plant because they got caught in the Kangaroo’s fur, to which they pointed out on the nearest Kangaroo.

For a while I thought that forget me not flowers were terrible because I believed what the expert said.  Then I realised that was not my truth. My truth was, any plant, flower or tree with seeds, uses the wind and animals to move their seeds around.  They are dependant on each other for this.

So what is your truth?  Look at things from multiple perspectives:

  1. Your perspective
  2. From the other persons perspective
  3. From an objective third person perspective and ask what is the purpose for this thing to be here.

Think about some of your truths, are they yours, or are they from others.  What is the truth for you.

Just a side note to consider, sometimes “causes” are truths from only one perspective.

Be in your truth.

Tracy xx

To live your truth takes strength and courage.

Lately my life has been letting me see my truth, in black and white.

It is funny how we can be far easier on others than ourselves.  I find it is easy to see other peoples truth, what is going on in their lives.  I can chat comfortably with them and give them a gentle prod to help them see what is happening. But when it comes to myself, I am harsh, unforgiving and I hold myself to a higher standard.

We went camping for the last 4 days. I find camping a great place to reconnect with mother earth, the animals and the elements.

We were watching the Osprey fishing for his daily meals.  Its quite windy where we were, so the Osprey could hold itself in the wind without much flying required.

I noticed small movements in his tail feathers when he wanted to go forward or a flattening and spreading of his tail feathers to stay put.

He dove down to into the water and grabbed a fish, came out slightly but then back down into the water.

I watched in amazement at first, as I thought he was adjusting his talons to keep a hold of the fish, but this took too long.  My amazement turned to horror, as wave after wave washed over him.  I thought he was going to drown.  I started to say to my husband, should we go in and save him.

But after a while, he flew out of the water and shook his feathers off, with no fish.

What was the truth, how did he stay in the water that long and survive?

As a shaman, nature and animals will represent messages from Great Spirit.  So I looked at that situation and thought what was the message for me?  If the Opsrey represented a part of me, was I seeing the truth of my life?

  • Does the Osprey catch every fish it goes for? No
  • Do I expect to catch every fish I go for? Yes
  • Do I dive into life with high expectations?  Yes
  • Do I expect things to be successful? Yes
  • Do I flounder around in the waves when things don’t go right?  Yes
  • Was the Osprey floundering around in the waves?  No I don’t think so
  • Do I emotionally stay in those situations too long? Yes
  • Did the Osprey stay in the water too long? No
  • Am I able to get myself out of situations and learn from them? Yes
  • Do I see all aspects of truth in my life? No – my expectations hide the truth from me.
  • Does the Osprey learn from not catching the fish? Yes and I learn from my mistakes and I have a lifetime to do that.

It takes strength and courage to see your truth.

Be gentle on yourself when catching the fish in your life, because you wont catch every fish and you will learn and grow.

Tracy xx

Are you to independent to ask for help?

I have liked to achieve things on my own.  It has given me over the years a real sense of achievement and a feeling of success.  By not asking for help, it has actually made my life more difficult than it needed to be.

Why do we do these things to ourselves?  Is it because we want the recognition?  Is it because we were brought up with beliefs like:

  • you have to make it on your own, or
  • your weak if you ask for help.

I got to thinking about this, because it is not only me, that doesn’t like to ask for help.  I see it in others.  We are forced to swallow our pride to get some help.  There is an exception for most of us, we do ask for help from the people that are close to us.

So let’s think about asking for help a little differently.   Let’s think about it as, a process of co-creation.

When I make a meal, I am co creating with the food.  I cant make a meal without food, so I really need the foods help.

I am a qualified chef so I don’t use recipes very often (only for baking, because you need a recipe for that) but for those of you who do use recipes to make a meal, you are co-creating with food and the author of the recipe.  Your getting help.  Like the picture above, I am co-creating with the food to make a meal for my Dad.  I am helping my Dad.

When I write this blog, I am being inspired by an aspect of life that I feel is important to share and so I am co-creating with a divine source to write down my inspirations to help others bring balance into their lives.  I am being helped and I am helping others.

How much easier would life be, if we all asked for help when we needed it. You know you cant make a baby without help…..!!

A coffee with friends sharing ideas, is an act of co-creation. They are helping you get clear about what to do and you are helping them.

So stop being independent and ask to co-create your life, it will flow so much easier if you do.

Enjoy Tracy xx


Is it exercise or a nature walk?

For years I have been going for a walk in the mornings and afternoons.

Initially before I became the shaman, my focus was, time, pace, length of walk, rate of sweating, burning calories and acknowledging other walkers on the track.

But that all changed.

As the shaman in the city, I now notice the colours, sounds, animals, trees and rocks on my walk.  The walk has now become slower.  I pick up feathers, look at the clouds in the sky, watch the sunrise with its beautiful rays.  Touch the trees, see their bark and their unique characteristics.  I have begun naming areas on my walk such as sacred grove, fairy grass and the forest.

Today I was up early.   Early enough to see the suns rays coming up from the horizon and a song popped into my head.  “Little ray of sunshine, has come into the world” (by Brian Cadd).  I captured the sunrise moment with my Iphone, see the picture at the top of this post.

As I threw 3 frangipani flowers into the river to give thanks for the beautiful day and for my gifts, I also asked for clarity on my journey.  I then proceeded to take my shoes off an walk in the crisp grass as I continued on my morning nature walk, remember I live in an apartment, so I have no grass to stand on.

The wisdom of today’s journey was, I am exercising not only my body but my mind and my spirit.  Whatever captures my attention is my connection to the spirit in everything.  The spirit of sunrise reminded me that each day we are born a new, just like the little ray of sunshine that comes into the world.

Enjoy the day Tracy