Is that pimple really yours?

You know, even at the ripe old age that I am, I can still look in the mirror and see a pimple on my face.  I am not 15 anymore, so pimples aren’t a regular occurrence on my skin like they used to be.

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But when I see a pimple, do I:

  • Blame the chocolate I ate?
  • Blame my woman’s cycle?


  • Take responsibility for my pimple?

Like it or not the pimple is there.  I like to take responsibility for my pimple, so the things I do are:

  • Say hello
  • Thank God for oil in my skin
  • Acknowledge that it is there for a reason – my reason.
  • Nothing or no one has created this pimple but me.
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Pimples are like lessons in life, take responsibility for them, they are yours and yours to learn from.

So love your pimples even at ripe old age….hahaha.

Tracy xx

Are you scared of scarcity?

Scarcity means we don’t have enough, money, food, water or love.

Are you scared of scarcity?

Are you scared of scarcity?

Are you scared of scarcity?

What I have found travelling through outback Australia is that the indigenous cultures, dealt with scarcity in ways that meant they were never in scarcity.

So how did they do that?



They honoured the resources that were in abundance or in scarce supply.  They only ever used as much as they needed, no more.  They knew that in abundant times, not to take all that was there, so as to provide opportunities for regrowth for the next season or the next year, or for those that came after.

We in the city have become complacent with our resources.  We have an abundance of water, food, for some money and others love.  When we don’t honour those resources we have and when they become scarce we can become scared.  What will we do?

Honouring and respecting all your resources

Honouring and respecting all your resources

My answer is this, live with honour for all that you have, all the resources in your life, such as water, food, money and love.  Honour them, use them for what you need, prepare for times of scarcity when abundance abounds.

When we honour and respect our resources we can live comfortably in times of scarcity and in times of abundance.  A lesson well worth learning.

With honour and respect Tracy xx

Honour and respect

Do you honour and respect yourself and all things in your life?

Honour and respect yourself

I look around at the things I have and do in my life and I ask, do I honour and respect myself?

My response is yes and no.

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There are times in my life when I let others or other things, be more important in my life that what is right for me.

This week I was bestowed with a great honour in a task that was asked of me. This task is all about honour and respect in all that I do and all that I am.  It will also be a great gift of honouring and respect towards others when it is complete.   It has made me realize that I should honour and respect myself always.

It takes very little to honour and respect your life.

It can be as simple as, honouring a picture that you own, by getting it framed.   It can be honouring the food you eat.  Honouring yourself by going out for a walk.

Respect & honour yourself, respect and honour others.

When you honour yourself, you are then able to honour and respect others.

Take a little time each day to honour yourself. You will be amazed at how it will change your life.

Tracy xx

Transformation – Breaking out of your cocoon

Yesterday I journeyed with some wonderful people to facilitate their ‘making a drum’.

Drum makers enter the day thinking they know who they are – unrealized potential.      They leave the day transformed into who they really are – awakened.

Drum making is a powerful experience. All medicine making is powerful and transformative.

Most of us start our day by ritually having a shower, putting on our make up or shaving and getting dressed for work.

When making medicine, we too have a ritual, it is creating sacred space.  I created our sacred space by bringing in, the four directions, four elements, sun, moon, sky, mother earth, great spirit, our ancestors, guides and animal totems.  Here it is represented in the photo.  This ritual is preparing for the transformation.


Here is where the transformation journey of the larva to the butterfly begins.  All of us have potential within us to transform ourselves, but not just once, many times.

At the start of drum making, we meditate to meet the deer, who has gifted us the hide we will use to make the drum.

We then commence cutting out the hide and the lacing, to make the drum.   Old thoughts, emotions and behaviours come out for us to release, knowing they are being healed.  It is useful to recognise these emotions and know what they mean for us.

For the larva it is about building the cocoon and going within.  It is about being in the dark, with aspects of ourselves that we may have avoided, don’t want to face, that need healing.

Next starts the process of binding the back of the drum, by tensioning the drum head over the hoop.  This is challenging and more phsycially demanding than people realize.  It is time for the butterfly to break out of the cocoon.  No one can help the butterfly, for if they do, the butterfly will not have the blood or life force energy in their wings to fly.  So undertaking this process with the hide knotting and losing ones way, is part of what happens as we bind the back of the drum on our own.






As the end comes near and the final tensioning of the back of the drum occurs, a new found sense of freedom emerges for the drum makers.  A transformation.  The drum has taken form, it has beauty and power.  Drum makers know the struggle they went through to create their drum. So it is with pride they show their drums to others.  They recognise what the journey of transformation is.

So as my drum participants left the day with their drum in their hands, they were not the same people.  They were all transformed, awakened with a new found belief in themselves.  Look at them sparkle, they are ready to fly.

So transform yourself, break out of your cocoon and empower yourself in your life.

Tracy xx

Making life palatable

As a young girl growing up, my mother insisted on serving me peas for dinner.  She kindly only gave me about 20 at a time.  I would do everything I could to hide them under my knife and fork, so as not to eat them.  I’ve never found peas palatable.  Their texture and mouth feel have always, even to this day, made me gag.

There are many things in our lives that we resist or don’t want to swallow.   They can be thoughts, beliefs attitudes, advice, choices, even people and their behaviours.  Sometimes when we do take them in, they may us sick and we wished we hadn’t gone down that path.

As the shaman I choose to make all aspects of my life palatable.  Life will flow through me, over me and around me with joy.

So how do I do that?

Here is the tip, I make everything palatable by the “labels” I put on things.

Peas are labeled as a “food I don’t like”.   If I label peas as a “medicine shield paint”, peas become palatable and I embrace them in my life in a way that I can consume.  Here is how I used split green peas, black eye peas and red kidney beans in a “medicine shield paint” palatable way. I loved doing this and working with those “peas”.

On occasions I will right down the items that are creating resistance in my life and I re-label them into things that are palatable in my life.  There is always higher purpose or reason for the thing that is presenting in my life.   When I recognize that and re-label it, I let go of my resistance to it and life becomes palatable.

Taste your life in unique ways and enjoy.


Sacred spiral – what spins you out

In tribal cultures they talk about a ‘sacred spiral’.   Dancing or moving into the centre means, moving to the core of who you are, your soul, into your power.  Moving out in the spiral means, you have allowed your fears or doubts to overtake you.

Yesterday I made a turtle shaped rattle.  I hand painted the shell on the back.  I was quite proud of my efforts, as I am by no means Picasso.   I decided to share it with my friends on facebook.  Interestingly, other people loved it and I had 2 people say, if I made anymore they would buy them.

This morning I awoke between 4 and 5am.  I had had a dream that had made me tense, with a pain in the neck.  This was not useful.

As I lay in bed, I recapped the dream, there were 3 components:

  • I was with a number of people who had to go a do a task in a big city, my first thought I was going to get attacked or mugged as I had seen someone loitering
  • Then I was worried I did not have enough money (you needed a certain amount and I had to go an get some out of the bank)
  • The last part of the dream I was on my friends farm, I had to stay at the farm whilst everyone else went out and worked.  I felt useless.  Then I saw a really strange amazing animal.   At first I thought it was an eagle.  The feathers turned into fur.  As I looked more closely it out to be a cross between a giraffe, llama and a monkey.

As I lay in bed I realised that each of the 3 parts of my dream were about fears or doubts I had about myself and expectations of myself.

I had spun myself out of my sacred spiral and I was feeling tense.

For the shaman in the city, dreams are rich information, about what is going on and what you need to be.

Looking at the dream as a whole the message I recognised was,

  • Parts of me that I think are useful (worry and fear) may not be.
  • Parts of me that I think are useless (not working like everyone else but experiencing other things) may be useful.

Another message of the dream was:

  • Letting go of my fears allows me to communicate through my heart. (I gathered this message from the last part of the dream about feathers turning into fur)  Feathers are about the element of air and communication. Fur means to me, opening my heart.

The last part of the dream message was about the shamanic animal totem meaning of the combined, eagle, giraffe, llama and monkey.   They represent:

  • Creating and expressing offerings to others, through my working with nature and animals

Recognising how and why we spin out of our sacred spiral, allows us the choice to let go of those things and move back into the centre.

Moving back to the centre

Tracy x

Creation: A process of healing through medicine making

When creating something, whether it is sewing a new outfit, cooking a beautiful meal, or even creating a medicine tool, you are bringing new things or ways of being into your life.  It will also mean letting go of things, behaviours, thoughts and beliefs that don’t serve you anymore.

I love creating and medicine shield making is one way I create.   It is a process that takes time.  I may find a beautiful stick on a walk that talks to me and invites me to pick it up and bring it home.  That stick may sit on my balcony or in the lounge room for months till one day, I have a flash of inspiration, of what I am meant to do with it.

A picture will form in my head about what I am meant to do.  I will ponder and perturbate that thought, knowing that the creation process has begun.

This stick (shown in the picture below)  appeared to be a person that wanted wings.  As the thoughts churned around in my mind, I thought it could be an angel, but alas no, that was not meant to be.  My creative connection decided it would be a bat.

As soon as I know my creative idea has crystalised, I get a sense of urgency.  I must create this now.  Nothing else matters.  So with excitement and passion I go about the creation process for making a medicine shield.

For this shield, I first cut out templates for the bat wings.  I then commence assembling the medicine shield.

I break rules when I create things. I let go of the, should’s, must do’s, have to’s and just allow what is happening.

I allow the medicine shield to come alive with each step of the creating.  I tension the leather wings onto the stick.

I love to use nature, food, or any natural item I can, to create my vision and in this case the vision of the bat.   Here I have used lentils to create the bat wing forelimbs.

Lastly when I feel it is done.  I birth the medicine shield with my drum, bringing it to life with the heart beat of mother earth and because I have given birth to this creation, it is a part of me.

So this bat medicine shield shamanically signifies rebirth.  At this point in my life I was rebirthing into a new way of being.  I had let go of old ways of living, acting and reacting.  The medicine shield signifies my personal journey.  It is healing me, it is allowing me to grow and evolve.

Anything that you create is allowing you to heal, grow and evolve.  So go and create something, a meal, a beautiful posy of flowers, create anything and experience that beautiful healing of creation.

Nature’s Totem Pole

Trees catch my attention no matter where I go.

I have a few favourite trees on my walks.  Trees that have spoken to me and given me gifts of sticks for the medicine I make in the form of: medicine shields, dream catchers and wands, all of which are healing tools.

Today a tree caught my eye.  I loved the way the bark of the tree spiraled up the trunk.  The spiraling gives it is strength to withstand the elements of its life.  When anything catches my eye, I take a picture so that I can share it.  I capture the moment.

What I did notice in this tree this morning was a face at the bottom of it.  The smiling face of the tree spirit.   Then as I looked more, I began to notice the natural totem that appeared in this tree. Here is what I saw from the bottom moving up, a bat, smiling mans face, boar, snake and lastly a seahorse.

Totem poles were monument carvings in trees by indigenous groups.   They were known to recount familiar legends, clan lineages, or notable events.

No tribe carved nature’s totem pole, it has just grown naturally in this tree and luckily for me, today I saw it.

As I look for the message and the meaning behind me noticing nature’s totem pole today, I will consider the symbols in their sequence from the totem pole, to each shape I saw.   Here is the message from nature’s totem pole today:

  • Today is an important day for you.  Remember to treasure every day as a gift.
  • Sometimes we need to rebirth ourselves, as we have taken on beliefs, attitudes and things that don’t serve us anymore.
  • Enjoy every day and be happy.
  • Be strong.
  • Allow things in your life that don’t serve you, to pass through you, without affecting you.
  • Integrate the wisdom within.

I hope you find this as powerful a message as I did today.

Tracy xx