Countdown is on

Sometimes as we look forward to some things in our lives, we can wish our lives away whilst counting down until we get to our big goal.

STS-129_Launch_Countdown_SignI am 10 days away from going on our 800klm pilgrimige across Spain.  I am trying not to count down the days, but I feel like I am at a loose end.  I don’t feel like watching movies, there are only so many times you can clean the house.  I am just waiting…….

It is exciting to be getting ready for something big.

There have been many times throughout our lives where we may have counted down the days.  Going to school, getting married, starting a new job, buying a house or even having a baby.

So instead of counting down I am savouring the moments.  Noticing the weather, the sky, the sunrise, the temperature.  Visiting important people in my life before I go.

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Image by jansenjunction.blogspot.com

Oh dear I just cant help myself, 10 days and counting…. Tracy x

When is going backwards actually going forwards.

For about 5 months now, I have been training 6 days a week to walk the Camino.  An 800klm walk across Spain.  Now that sounds fantastic.  But it hasn’t always been 6 days,  there are times when I have been away overseas working, so when I have returned, I have jumped back into to my 6 day a week routine.  It was developing my fitness, stamina and muscle memory.

We are now down to the last 2 weeks before we go on the big journey and my training has taken a 180 degree turn backwards.

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Image by: ‪www.davidzinger.com

I have been away overseas for 2 weeks and was planning to jump back into my training give or take a day from jet lag, I found myself doing the exact opposite.

Nothing…….My whole body seized up.  I couldn’t move. I thought how am I going to carry a backpack and walk 800klms for 2 months with a body like this.

There were a couple of things I could do.  Panic, get really upset, cry lots, or even push through.  I decided none of these were useful.  I kept hearing a voice inside my head saying “Trust you’ve done the work”.

I decided to go a get a massage to ease my tense muscles.  OMG.   I am quite sensitive at the best of time, but I knew I needed to make sure all the knots in my body were released.

Pretzel

She tried to bend me like a pretzel, but I was like a metal pole that wouldn’t bend.

I would have thought that after the massage I would be freely moving, no I was wrong.  Still moving backwards.

I was layed up for 3 days sore, aching, feeling sick, with a nice deep chesty cough but then also not layed up because I was sore and aching and couldn’t get comfortable enough to sleep.

Again I keep hearing a voice saying,  “Trust you’ve done the work”.

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Image by: ‪bensviewpoint.blogspot.com

So the universe has conspired to move me backwards, so I can move forwards on my journey and they are asking me to trust that going backwards is going forwards right now.

So I am moving backwards for now and I am okay with that.  I am not doing anything besides have another couple of massages to totally loosen my body up and trust deeply I have done the work!

Tracy xx

Are you plugged into your power outlet?

Have you ever really found a place where you were truly energised by it?  Where you felt plugged in?  Where there was a source of power that you were connected to?

Single-10A-Power-OutletI have found my power outlet.

It is in the Middle East.  Why there you ask?

plug_sillitoe_2It is a place where I once lived, not in this life but a past life, my last past life before now and I know that to be true.

The great thing about finding this place is, you will come across it unexpectedly when you are ready.  And when you are ready, your life will change. However, you may not have to go overseas to find it.

So what happens when you find it?  You become balanced.  You become whole.  You become aligned.  You become one with all things.

 

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Image by www.youngable.com

There is a sense of comfort, a sense of home, a sense of quiet and a sense of peace.

There is understanding.  There is wisdom.  There is time and no time.

To give you a hint about what to notice if you find your power outlet, you will feel it in the whole of your being on every cell when you are there and you will know it to be true.

Plugged in.  Tracy xx

90 will you get there?

Meet Edna, she turns 90 tomorrow and is my amazing wonderful Aunt and God Mother.  She is a woman who is wise, compassionate, generous loving soul who has opened her heart and house to many people in need.

Aunty Ed and Uncle Al on their wedding day - the going away outfit.

Aunty Ed and Uncle Al on their wedding day – the going away outfit.

Edna opened her house and heart to me when I was in need.  I was separated from my first husband, she took me in and allowed me to live with her and heal.  For that I am extremely grateful.

She has taught me many things, live in the moment, do not worry, enjoy life and reward yourself because you have worked hard for it.  Eat well and drink champagne no matter what the time of day, because it’s good for you.

Christmas shopping with champagne

Christmas shopping with champagne

She is an amazing master porcelain artist and still paints to this day. She has shown me creativity at its best.  Here is some of her beautiful work that I have around my home.

Edna's art

Edna’s art

Over the years we have spent some great times together.  We go to the movies, shows, have great chats about politics and religion.  I take her Christmas shopping every year and we now shop monthly for her heavy things.  Although she has 2 bionic knees she still gets around quite well.

At Mary Poppins

At Mary Poppins

She has demonstrated that love, an open heart and forgiveness can create a wonderful life.  She has had her ups and downs in life as we all do, she is a survivor of cancer and her husband passed away over 25 years ago.

Edna is a role model, open minded, caring and loving and I hope I am half the woman she is.  Much love to you Aunty Ed.

Tracy xx

When do your underpants become a luxury?

I travel to Abu Dhabi quite a lot to work.  I always take my work in my carry on luggage so that if there is a problem I will always be able to do my job.  I have the most important ‘need’ with me.

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Image by http://netdna.copyblogger.com/images/underpants.jpg

This journey my suitcase didn’t make it to Abu Dhabi with me.  The workshop I was conducting would be fine, I just ‘needed’ to buy some clothes to wear to work, toothbrush and underpants.  Just my basic ‘needs.’  The morning of work I rang the airline and my bag had been sent back to Brisbane not onto Abu Dhabi and would take another day to get here.  Oh dear….I thought.  I would have to buy another outfit and underpants for the next day.

Nomadic tribal people only carry what they ‘need’.  This is a great lesson I had already learnt, it is about letting go of stuff that you don’t ‘need’ in life that doesn’t serve any purpose.  It allows you to live a simple life.

I have understood the lesson between needs verses wants in the past too, but this lesson went deeper this time.  This time, I realised my underpants were a luxury!

To my surprise when I returned home from work on my first day my bag had arrived.  It was like a long lost friend that had come back into my life. I had so many things to choose from.  I was so happy, I even changed my clothes.

I realised that my ‘needs’ were in fact the luxuries of my life, they gave me a feeling of abundance and I had great appreciation for all that I have.

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Image by http://postmediacanada.files.wordpress.com/2011/11/first-class.jpg

I also realised that my thoughts about ‘wanting’ to fly business class on my long haul flight home were ludicrous.  As long as my ‘needs’ are met, I am abundant, in the flow of life.

Do you really appreciate what you ‘need’, do you see it as a luxury in your life?

Only when everything is taken away can we really appreciate the true essence of our ‘needs’ as our life’s luxuries.

Taking only that which I need……Tracy x

Is that pimple really yours?

You know, even at the ripe old age that I am, I can still look in the mirror and see a pimple on my face.  I am not 15 anymore, so pimples aren’t a regular occurrence on my skin like they used to be.

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Image by alzicx.com

But when I see a pimple, do I:

  • Blame the chocolate I ate?
  • Blame my woman’s cycle?

Or

  • Take responsibility for my pimple?

Like it or not the pimple is there.  I like to take responsibility for my pimple, so the things I do are:

  • Say hello
  • Thank God for oil in my skin
  • Acknowledge that it is there for a reason – my reason.
  • Nothing or no one has created this pimple but me.
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Image by pathtowellness.com.au

Pimples are like lessons in life, take responsibility for them, they are yours and yours to learn from.

So love your pimples even at ripe old age….hahaha.

Tracy xx

Saying goodbye to my old shoes…

You may be aware that my husband and I are preparing to walk “The Way of St James” in 2 months time.  It is a pilgrimage that covers 800klms, travelling from St Jean Pied De Port in France to Santiago De Compostela in Spain.  We have been training for 4 months, testing our boots, packs, clothes etc.

Comfortable oldshoesMy old comfortable walking boots that I have had for 5 years, were doing the trick.  They have let me walk 9klms each morning and 24klms on the weekends.  They were old and comfortable.  I really wanted my boots to last the distance.

IMG_4470But alas, my old boots decided to tell me it was time for them to go. It was their soles, I had worn them out.   I was resisting, I felt undecided about having to purchase new boots, but with only 2 months out from the big walk, this was the time to get new boots and break them in.

So this morning I decided to go and purchase some new boots.  The great thing about my old boots, is they had shown how boots need to feel, when walking.  The sales girl in the shop was very patient with me.  I finally found a pair of boots that seemed to fit. I walked around the shop for about 30 minutes, including walking up and down their little hill to see how they went.

IMG_4472I then made the decision to buy them, thats when I cried!! I realised my boots had carried me on my journey thus far, they had been great and now I was saying good bye.

So I now have some new boots for ‘Walking the Way’.  I trust they will carry me safely and comfortably, the 1 million steps that the ‘Way of St James’ is.

Tracy x

Who is living in a fairy tale?

Once upon a time…..

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Image by www.rebellesociety.com

There was a little girl with red hair and she thought she could fly just like Mary Poppins.  She went outside with her umbrella, stood on the stool and jumped.  As she floated to the ground, she knew she had flown.

Now sadly her sisters didn’t believe her.   Was it the wind that caught her light weight or something else?

Image by dream_story_book_by_holliewood1391-d2zonf0Believe it or not we all have stories that may or may not be true.  But you don’t have to be 5 to be telling them, you might be 25, 45 even 75, because our lives are full of stories and our stories are full of perceptions.

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Image by ‪sophia-m.deviantart.com

Most statements people make are littered with perceptions or how they see and experience the world.  So is their world just a fairy tale?

I have spent the week listening to myself and seeing how much of a fairy tale I live in.  I was surprised, I could barely make a statement without it having perceptions all though it.  Why don’t you try it and just see?

There is a nice gentle breeze passing by, I am just going to get my unbrella….

Tracy.

Do you love your warts?

Have you ever noticed that there are aspects of ourselves we love and are proud of and then there are parts of ourselves that we don’t love.  Sometimes people might ignore those aspects of themselves they don’t love, where as others might focus solely on those aspects they don’t love.  Neither of those behaviours are useful.

953_10952_a_witch_nose_large_make_up_schminke_clownweis_spezial_effekte_wunden_aufklebewunden_glatzenfolie_hautkleber_wi_grSo how do you love your warts?

self-loveSelf love is the answer, loving all parts of yourself, warts and all.

It is easier said than done.  When we don’t love the whole of ourselves we are limit our lives.   We put self imposed rules on ourselves that we should live by and we limit our true potential.

Why not try this.  Write a list of all the aspects of yourself that you love and then write a list of all the aspects of yourself you don’t love.  Did you know that all those aspects of yourself you don’t love, serve a purpose in your life,  or are a result of things you do love. For example as you get older your body changes, it isn’t like it used to be.  Recognise that your body changing is a result of you stepping into the wisdom phase of your life, free of other responsibilities that occur at a younger age.  There is a self love component to every aspect of you, it is useful to find it.  Do this now against every item on your list that you dont love about yourself.

rules-for-allSelf love is also about not living by other peoples rules, but rather writing your own rules.  Also note if some of things you don’t love about yourself are rules set by others that don’t serve you.  Change those rules now too!

It is about reconciling all parts of yourself and becoming whole.

So love your warts, because they are great parts of you too.

Tracy – warts and all xx

Duelling ego’s

One of the important lessons in life is letting go of your ego.

If you haven’t let go of your ego, you may find it has the potential to bring you down, make you feel inadequate, make you unhappy and have unrealistic expectations.

Duelling ego'sThis week I was privy to sit on the outside of a group and watch duelling ego’s. It was about better, better and best. I saw two opposing people, who felt the need to share what they had done, what was better than the other, and who was the best.

Their ego’s were duelling and this behaviour went on for days. It served no purpose other than to make them feel good and someone else feel less than.

When you let go of your ego you find you will be in a peaceful place.  There are no competitions.  No one to better, it is a place of compassion and authenticity.

just be youTry it. Let go of your ego and just be.  Tracy xx